CALM

I have been advised
by a friend who may possibly know
that in these moments
of feeling total turmoil,
I should try to remember
how it feels to feel calm.
This seems a simple idea.
Like sucking on a piece of chocolate.
But my mind is overwhelmed
by the fear in my chest,
and it's hard to call forth
those memories.
Were there ever times
when life seemed in order,
when I felt safe and protected,
and exactly where I was meant to be?
I go back in my mind,
hoping to answer,
with little success.
You see, right now I'm frantic and
unable to focus.
I'll have to try again
when I'm feeling
calm.


© Ellen Azorin